A first fruits harvest from a first fruits offering is resurrection life. To the degree you are willing to die is the degree of resurrection power that will flow through you. A first fruits offering in scripture symbolizes consecration of all the rest of the harvest to follow, the word in Greek is aparkhay, the same origin of aparchomai “to make a beginning”.
Jesus gave Himself as a firstfruit offering for all of humanity, and all of humanity has opportunity to experience this resurrection life and power. Jesus consecrated us (the harvest that follows Him) from our sins through His shed blood, and made a new beginning for humanity!
Your experience is your choice, it is a matter of personal will. You can have the fullness of Christ without measure to the measure you allow His life to work through you, bearing your cross like Him. Follow Him. If you want the power of God you will yield to death; this is where you are unified with Him, empowered, and experience His resurrection life.
This death is not morbid, Jesus said it was the joy set before Him that He endured the cross. The joy of our faces, the joy of knowing there would be a way from eternal separation from His beloved. A joy that enabled Him to complete this plan of redemption, making a new destiny for mankind He would purchase back His Bride with His innocent blood. Though self denial and loss can be painful, nothing compares to the price that was already paid. It is the joy set before us to also endure and take up our cross to be in union with Him. For in His presence is the fullness of joy … pleasures forevermore.