Today was one of those days I shed a lot of tears. And as much as I love writing, I don’t even think it’s in me to poetically state what the Lord just did! Our adjectives do not suffice to describe Him no matter how eloquent the writer in any regard. So simply said, yet no less powerful; He is Love and He is good.
We know He is faithful and true, yet when we are tested and still contending for a promise with no answer or ‘rain cloud’ in sight, when you desperately need the ‘Red Sea to part’, this is where the great war continues within; aligning allegiance of the soul (mind, will, and emotions) unto all that the Spirit has spoken. Spent from my own wrestle, I ended one of my prayers this evening postrate on my bed uttering aloud, “I know You hear me… but Lord could You please just give me a sign You are listening ?!?”. I then heard clearly “go outside and look in the back of your car”.
Too emotionally tired to put “two and two together”, almost forgetting what I just prayed, I simply went out to the car and started looking around in the backseat. I didn’t find any ‘treasures’, so I asked the Lord why He had me come out there. But He knows me, and knows I’ll keep on looking… so I opened the trunk and was going through some of my things when a gold chain that was out of place caught my eye. I pulled it out and to my surprise it was a favorite necklace that has been missing for over a year! It’s actually the second time this necklace has gone missing, and the time prior the Lord gave me a dream about where it was though I had looked in that same place before (it had fallen out of the jewelry bag). Though I am elated to have it again, more joy than the restoration of the necklace is the meaning of what is inscribed on it, ‘LOVE’.
When I am listened to, I feel love. And so the One who knows my love languages best, speaks to me in such a way that my heart can be revived. And I am in love with Him, even when I don’t understand, even when I don’t have the answers. He is good. He is faithful, He is true. Love will always sustain us. Our spirit knows, but we must remind our soul He is the God who hears.
“The Lord your God is among you; He is mighty to save. He will rejoice over you with gladness; He will quiet you with His love; He will rejoice over you with singing.”” Zephaniah 3:17